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12/29/08 06:14 pm

New places, routines, even people all seem overwhelming yet all the same, making me feel happiness.
I'm currently sitting in my cousins study. Books and little antique treasures surround me. The room is quite
warm and gives me a sense of secureness. Although I am miles away from my own home...next to me is my
little sis who is watching her wiggles like as if she'd fallen in love at first glance. All day I watch sex and the
city with Jen and next to her is Steven. And if you listen close enough you can hear David strumming his guitar
strings. A couple a days ago I cut David's hair. Tomorrow is my last day here in the sunny state. I'll miss late nights
and talks till morning that never seem to end, but now I think I'm ready to fly home to see some old friends
and spend New Years with my boy. Hope your holidays are great!

your friend.

11/8/08 02:48 pm

Yesterday I pulled a muscle in my lower back. For once I felt useless, and very lonely.
I ended up spending the whole night with just me and my blanket rolled up in a ball. I could hear
laughter beneath me, footsteps, and music playing outside. The wind was louder then ever.
I heard every movement within the trees in my backyard, I heard kids across the streets, and
cars racing past my window. And there I was stuck in my dark room, wondering what everyone else
was doing at that moment. It was then that I closed my eyes and woke up to the fresh smell of coffee and bird sounds.

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11/7/08 05:43 pm

Lately I find it so hard to express my feelings using words. Everything is simply expressed through actions. It seems as though my memories now only consist of silly things. Like solitaire, or tying knots using broken head phones. Drawing pandas and waking up to new bruises and scars. Lately I find it so difficult to concentrate on my studies. I find myself walking like a drunk person and tripping over my own feet. My eyes lose focus and my ears only hear side conversations of idiotic drama. Sometimes I wonder if I ever have focus.
Until it hit me, if I pay attention I'd miss all the beautiful things I discover each day and that would be such a disappointment, but sometimes I wonder why I never payed attention to begin with ..

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9/7/08 04:47 pm

Last Friday me & Tony drew pandas during 7th period while we waited for school to get out.
It was the cutest thing. He would have one window opened to the pandas and the other to
some astronomy page. It made me laugh that every time someone came near us he'd switch
the screen to the astronomy one. We would keep bumping elbows while we drew and when
the day ended we had drawn 2 demented, alien looking ones and 2 that weren't so bad.

It made me realize how much I've missed doing silly things that really didn't
have much meaning to it. That for that moment only, the world seemed real.
It was like a dream that I didn't want to be woken from.

8/11/08 12:23 am

I miss this.